The stress of having to write and put together an article
while juggling my son, husband, dress line, blog, website, 2 dogs, laundry etc,
etc, etc. was really wearing on me. I had to tell the editor of Society 805
that I cannot take on projects via text last night. I felt horrible about it
but for now I neeeeeeed to concentrate on my sample dresses.
I am absolutely grateful she is willing to work around my
busy life and schedule. As for the Wedding article I was supposed to write up.
It might be handed down to someone else on her team.
Trying to explain to someone that doesn’t have kids that my
son comes first no matter what. It might make me sound like I’m not serious
about my business but, to me it’s not important to “make it big” or “rake in
the cash”. I am blessed enough to not have to worry about things like that
right now. I have an absolutely wonderful husband who is supportive and loving
no matter what I do and a son who is growing up so fast that I would hate to
miss a moment of it.
I am one of those women who can’t bare the thought of
leaving my only baby to a nanny just so I can pursue a dream (that everyone
knows can wait). I am not that selfish. I am contemplating actually hiring my
own mother to come and watch my son once or twice a month to give me a full day
in my office. I might be a clingy mom but, I don’t EVER plan on having any more
babies. So I’m going to enjoy this time in my life to the fullest. It won’t
ever happen again and I would hate to miss it.
Having said all of that my mornings are actually pretty
hectic. I wake up change and feed my son. Tidy up the mess we left in the
living room, Office and kitchen the night before. Some days I tidy up and do
laundry. As I’m doing all of that I play games and chat AT my son lol. I let him
hang with me in the office as I check my emails and social sites. He loves
hanging out in there because that’s usually where my dogs are.
Once or twice a week I go on walks with the dogs and baby. The
rest of the week my husband tries to work from home and takes the dogs and my
son on those walks. Our lives have no SET schedule as of now. Sometimes I join
my husband at work and lend him a hand. He does the same whenever he works from
home and watches our son while I try and work. Thankfully our son isn’t too
much too handle. But he is only 1 ½ years old so I might be speaking too soon.
(Knock on wood)
I recently realized that my life is virtually stress free. The
time I spend in my office creating dresses is like my Spa time. I get to relax
and do what I love to do. Even the times when I’m running around the house
after my son I cherish so much because in my mind I know I wont ever get to go
through it again with another baby of my own. Looking at his reactions to
things, teaching him words, and how to do things is amazing to me.
Stress, to me, usually comes from when I try to do too much
and I begin to realize I’m ignoring my husband, son, or parents. Now that I
know how much is TOO much I can go on with life trying to balance it all.
